The Forgetter

So here I am up past midnight, which is actually a bit abnormal for me. I don't do so well with sleep. And lately I haven't been getting that much. I have to admit, most of it is because of the guitar and being anxious about projects, but there has been something in the back of my mind for quite a while now. A very long while. Too long.

There's always going to be someone or something you want to forget. An event or an outlier that makes you feel self-pity. To just abolish it from your memory, without any second thought. Whether you may hate them or have other reasons to want to forget them, it plagues the mind and obstructs other thought and proper function.
You can't explain why you can't forget it or them, and this annoys you. You want to. But you won't. It's been annoying me for more than a year, fluctuating in frequency throughout the whole span of my torment. I thought I did a good job of repressing it, considering I kind of forgot of it completely. Homework probably did that. But now it's resurfacing and filling me with discontent.

This post may be an outlet. On the inside it feels a bit like a plea for attention. But I know it's not. There is only one way to deal with this nuisance, to rid yourself of this luggage that weighs you down in all that you do and all that you try to be.

Don't do anything. Confront it and come clean with yourself. Just as I have. Yes, you screwed up, so move on with it. It won't matter from now on.

My only personal post and the only one that I will ever let myself write. I just want to be able to sleep normally again...

//Edit:// Or drink a lot of booze. That works too. I had to bring this post back up. :P